Beginnings are always hard, but realising things aren’t going as initially planned or as expected can be a tad of a shock to this system.
I started this blog five years ago and posted photography, the occasional sketch and a few musings, and somewhere along the line a huge following (well, what I would consider huge) appeared. Over time I neglected this little corner of mine too much, updated only to throw a few paintings on the internet and not really consider why I was doing it. University and work took over my life quite massively and my own personal escape was not a priority.
Starting 2018 I have realised how hugely important it is for me to have my own little place in the world, I have spent the last two years learning to be an Illustrator, and now I am in the final (extremely stressful) stages of my degree. I am balancing a 20-30 hour working week with a full-time degree, and somewhere having enough time for a personal life and seeing my family more than just for Christmas. Not to say I’m complaining, but I have done the whole school/work balance since I was 17 and 5 years on I’m starting to tire of it.
More than ever I know what I want to be when I grow up, I want to be in control of my career. I want to be sure of where I am, my own boss, and my own critic. Being a freelance Illustrator will not be easy, and god knows there’s plenty of them, but the more I consider where I am in my life the more I know I’m up for a new challenge, and all that comes with it.
I set myself 5 professional goals for 2018. I will not share them all here, but number 1 is to begin building a brand for myself, my own little company. Maybe this is something everyone and their mums are doing these days, and isn’t particularly ground breaking by other people’s standards. However, for me, this is a commitment, to make something of myself, not to continue in a rut of part-time this part-time that.
So, that said, my little mission is starting here. My blog that started as a hobby is now officially my professional website and blog, and there’s so much more to come.